Loving this life...

Its been a while since I've managed to blog daily. I'm trying to make it a habit again but working six days a week for the past few weeks have put a huge damper on my creativity spark. Which I plan on changing real soon I hope.

Have I mentioned that I'm single? Well, its been almost a  month and surprisingly I am doing very well. I've been talking to a few men which make me feel all giddy and warm inside. A girl should feel like that, right? Its been so long since I've felt remotely beautiful because a man had said so. Its been so long since I've felt wanted like I do now. Oh, how times have changed.

I use to think I was moving too fast but I realized with my past relationship that you cant stall the heart. It'll grow and expand and let love in when you least expect it. Don't get me wrong. I'm nowhere near in love let along opening my heart up for that. I'm simply ready to let it happen if it shall.

Oh, and I'm also getting a tattoo! On Sunday to be exact. I'm extremely excited about it. I've been thinking about getting this particular thing for some time. Perhaps I'll post some photos.. Maybe.

Hope you lovelies are having an amazing week so far. I know I'm not... But I will be this weekend.

September Reading List!

So I've made a million lists this month, all of which I haven't done nor started. Therefore, I am making a reading list for the month of September which I plan on actually doing. Here's what I got so far:

1. Confessions of a Shopaholic
I have had this book on my TBR shelf for many years. My mother thought it was such an appropriate book  for her daughter, me, considering I have been a true shopaholic for.. many years. You should see my bank statements.

2. The Darkest Hour

This is the first book in Maya Bank's KGI novels. I already read the second one because I couldn't find the first one at the time I was craving a Maya Banks novel. This I HAVE to read... soon.

3. Retribution
I am sooooo excited to be reading this book. Sherrilyn Kenyon never seems to fail me.

4. Invincible

I could not put down the first book in this series. It was so good. I can't wait to hold this in my hands. I will devour this like a cupcake with sprinkles. Nick is so yummy!

Day 2 & Day 3: Favorite Movie/ Favorite Television Show

Day 2: Favorite Movie:

As of right now my absolute favorite movie is 'Somebody Like You'. Starring Ashley Judd and Hugh Jackman this movie made me realize there are other fish in the sea.

Day 3: Favorite Television Show:

 My favorite television show is definitely ONE TREE HILL! Drama, drama, and more drama!

Just a thought...

From the depths of despair, I'll show I care. When the dreams turn black, I'll watch your back. When you fall from high, I'll make you fly. When all you bleed is tears, I'll cast away those fears. Give me a smile, a star in your eye. That shine you had when you cry. Give me a chance to touch your soul, And I'll be with you, till the sun turns cold.

30 days about me: Day 1- My favorite song

I'm a little late on the band wagon but better late than never. Just starting 30 days of me. Lets see what fun these 30 days will be...

Day 1: Favorite Song

I'm a country girl. I love my country music. Anything from George Strait to Miranda Lambert but I've been forever in love with 'Apologies' by Grace Potter and The Nocturnals. Beautiful song!

He said it's crazy
How love stays with me
You know it hurts me
Cause I don't wanna fight this war
It's amazing to see me reading through this scene
Of love and fear and apologies

Ashes and Wine

Don't know what to do anymore
I've lost the only love worth fighting for
I'll drown in my tears
Don't they see?
That which show you, that which make you hurt like me

All the same
I don't want mudslinging games
It's such a shame
To let you walk away

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?

Don't know if our fate's already sealed
This day's spinning surface on a wheel
I'm ill with the thought of your kiss
Coffee laced intoxicating on her lips

Cut it out
I've got no claim on you now
Not allowed to wear your freedom down

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may chance your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?

I'll tear myself away
That is what you need
There is nothing left to say
But

Is there a chance?
A fragment of light at the end of the tunnel?
A reason to fight?
Is there a chance you may change your mind?
Or are we ashes and wine?
The day's still ashes and wine
Or are we ashes?

The pain overwelms me...

There's not much to say on my recent break up with Mr. A except that it fucking sucks. I have issues to work out that entails a whole lot of working on myself. We've agreed on separating ourselves for four days and lets be honest, what good will four days do to an already toxic relationship? I'm hoping a hell of a lot that's for sure.

A lot of realization has come into play on my end. I'm not sure how he feels but I never truly felt he was as open about feelings and emotions like I have been. And that's saying a lot I might add considering I'm as open and a closed casket.

Four days to work on myself. Four days to deal with this "depression" as I have no other word to explain it.

My top 3 breakup songs... from experience.

Its only been a few days since he broke up with me. I never thought it would be this hard to deal with but as it turns out, it's so much harder than I ever thought it would be. It seems the only things getting me through this are country songs, and great friends.

I just never thought this day would come...

My top 3 breakup songs:

"A Little Bit Stronger" by Sara Evans


"Undo It" by Carrie Underwood


"Gunpowder and Lead" by Miranda Lambert

Pistol Annies

Miranda Lambert has formed a new girl group, featuring her pals and songwriting partners, Ashley Monroe and Angaleena Presley. The trio are called Pistol Annies, and they made their debut during the taping of the Academy of Country Music's 'Girls' Night Out' television special in Las Vegas on April 4, 2011.

When Miranda was asked about Pistol Annies and the members, she said this:  "It's a girl named Angaleena Presley from East Kentucky and Ashley Monroe, and they're both artists on their own and they're great friends of mine. We've just been writing songs like crazy, and I always wanted to do a girl project. It's not your typical girl trio. We definitely have an edge. [laughs] We sing a lot about housewives."


With lyrics like, "you made me pretty, you made me smart, I'm gonna break me a million hearts" Miranda Lambert, Angaleena Presley, and Ashley Monroe bring together a trio of strong and independent women who's 100% country. 

Leaving on a jet plane.

I never thought I'd ever be this passionately inlove with someone. They say people come into your life for a reason. Why Mr. A is in my life? To teach me how to love again.

Being together for such a short amount of time, I can't begin to describe how much I am inlove with this man. He pulls emotions out of me I never knew I had and yet he posseses this nature to bring out the worse in me. It's as if when it's good, it's great. But when we're arguing and constantly fighting, it feels like the world is falling apart or I'm drowing and can't seem to breathe.

He'll be leaving me soon. Mr. A is simply just picking up and leaving. Although I knew this was coming, I just figured maybe he'd love me enought to want to stay. To maybe start something. Build a life knowing that perhaps maybe, just maybe he could see me in his future. That's not the case here.

I don't know what the point of this blog was but I just wanted to get a few things off my chest. I just wanted to write whatever I was feeling this morning and perhaps maybe this chaos could for once subside.... Even if just a little.

A Monday tip just for you

If you're fighting with the significant other, set some time aside to make up. Then, set even more time aside for the real make up session.





I've already scheduled my time. Happy Monday!